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I didn’t even have my pictures online.
That was not by accident. I was hiding.
That story is for another time although there is a letter ABOUT and TO a child molester somewhere in my blog called “You stole pieces of me and left me broken and afraid.” (December 2, 2013)
That was just the beginning of me believing satan’s lies that I was worth nothing and pretty much only good for sex.
(More of that story later.)
We’re living by faith right now.
Every day I ask God what He wants me to do “today.”
He has moved me way out of my comfort zone by being online on Facebook, Twitter, a blog, and a Facebook page for the blog. Anyone who knew me before God moved me online knows that I was the biggest NOT fan of social media. God moved me online to find support (prayer warriors, financial, connections, etc.) for this move to Alaska.
God was tugging at my heart just about 3 years ago telling me we were going to be moving. I was totally NOT wanting to hear that because I loved the church we were going to. I even told one of the elders there that I could never move because I loved that church too much.
Some people who are VERY gossipy started talking about our family and about stuff they wouldn’t even know at all if we hadn’t been open and honest about our lives and asked for prayers about it in the first place.
The rumors got so bad we were not able to worship there anymore. We had to find another church.
God’s been leading us and I know (NOW) that I HAD to give up THAT church because it was a reason I did not want to listen to God telling us we were going to move. (So you know that verse 1st Thessalonians 5:18? Well God’s teaching me that one REALLY well.)
So over the past 2 years we’ve been on a journey of giving up and not even really on purpose.
We gave up TV (no more satellite or anything and our kids are totally in agreement with this),
my husband and I both stopped smoking (I read a book. Allen Carr The Easy Way To Stop Smoking. One of THE best books EVER),
I cut my hair (an ex boyfriend used to tell me how ugly I was when my hair was short or in a ponytail so this was a really big deal to me. Turns out I’ve gotten MORE compliments on my short hair than I ever did when it was long),
my favorite car EVER was totaled when it was barely bumped in a parking lot by a guy who was texting and not watching where he was going (I cried over metal. That one’s frustrating. It’s just a car. But I’ll admit I cried over it. Silly beat up old 1996 Nissan. I miss that car),
and I let go of my worry over money and we started giving our first of paychecks (and also whenever and wherever God leads us to give more).
and I gave my kids over to God trusting Him that He will take care of them. I’d never done that before. Though I’ve heard of parents dedicating their children to the Lord, I was too afraid to speak that. But now I did.
BIG 2 years. NOW we (my daughters and I because husband does not want anything to do with “that blog” anymore) believe WHERE we’ll be moving is Wasilla, Alaska. (Never been to Alaska. And don’t have a house yet. But God is very big and I’m not worried.)
We know WHAT we’ll be doing is starting and caring for a teen homeless kinda place. (Never done this before but our past sure will come in helpful and it makes sense that this would be just the thing God would lead us to do.) I felt years ago that we’ll be serving at some kind of safe camp place (I believe is very possibly for sex-trafficked girls to have a safe place of refuge) was in my future but didn’t know who or where or when
And we know WHEN looks like April 1st. (Didn’t get to move then but we know God’s timing is the right timing for everything. Prayers please? Or more likely perhaps God is calling us to be fools for Him.)
We do not know HOW He’s moving us yet because we cannot do this God-sized job on our own. (Yes. We are praying for and expecting a miracle.)
So we’re listening and following as the Holy Spirit leads us.
We’re on a Walk of Faith. (Never really been on one of those. That name just fits what’s going on so now we have a name for it.)
Stick around and see what God can do with me. I believed satan’s lies for over 35 years that I was worth nothing. I was nobody. That old devil was wrong. I am somebody and God has shown me that because I was just not able to see it for myself.
Now I will spend the rest of my life as long as God gives me breath telling YOU that YOU are somebody, too (in case nobody tells you that.) You should get to hear it. Because it’s true.
We (my daughters and I) are a family who works, plays, and prays together. Whatever happens, we will praise Him. We appreciate any prayers and support of any kind.
What YOU can do: Please spread the word for us? Share this?
Thank you and God bless your life so big that you cannot help but notice Him.
Okay back to packing.