God’s led me back to a book I’ve been reading for a while.
The book is called It’s Not About Me by Max Lucado and it’s great.
It’s just NOT about me. It’s about God and I need to never step in the way. I even hate the way the blog and Twitter say “Follow” because do not follow me. Follow Him. He does NOT NEED me to help Him. He allows me to help.
And so He’s worked on my attitude and reminded me who I am to Him. I’ll do the job He’s leading me to do… Alaska homeless teen place and writing online (NOT comfortable in ANY way) and encouraging people daily while also challenging them to ask WHY they do the stuff and believe the stuff they believe.
Know how I know it’s God? Over 2,000 people have been to the blog. I could not make 2,000 people do anything. That’s how I know Who’s in charge. And I can rest and have comfort in that. He’s led an Australian newspaper to find the blog and they’re sharing some stories. That is how I know He’s got this. I just need to be His hands and feet and ask Him what He wants me to do every day. http://www.informedchristiannewspaper.com./
Sometimes I don’t feel like doing what He’s putting on my heart to do that day.
My youngest daughter was bullied in 5th grade.
I just found out yesterday how bad the bullying got in 5th grade and some teachers added to the problem. (NOT all the teachers.) And three boys and one girl specifically bullied my daughter to the point of her wanting to leave this world. I did not know it got that bad.
I don’t wish for them to NOT find Jesus but I just don’t care to be the one God may use to show Himself through. Ya know?
I’m human. I have regular feelings and all that.
I live “real.” My family lives “real.” And we like it that way. We will keep asking God what He wants us to do every day and for Him to use us to show His Light.
~Even on days we don’t really feel like it.~
it’s just not about me.