I would NOT be online. Period.
I was afraid. It’s as simple as that. I was afraid because now the rapists, molester, and others who have hurt me can now find me easier.
It was not a mistake that I wasn’t online. It wasn’t like I didn’t know HOW to use the internet or computer.
Of course I knew how.
I didn’t want to be online with pictures, video, writing, on social media, or anything else.
If I were doing things MY way I would not have put myself “out there” in the great, wide space of the internet suddenly deciding at age 44 to be ridiculed and mocked for my faith in doing what we know God is calling us to do; opening and caring for a homeless teen center in Alaska.
I certainly wouldn’t have intentionally invited hate mail or wanted to hear the poisonous passive aggressive voices from people who do not see why we are doing what we are doing and at the same time do not have courage to ask us “Why?” personally.
If I were doing things MY way, I wouldn’t advertise that we were selling, giving, packing, and now waiting on the Lord to provide what He’s shown us He will provide if we do this work He’s given us to do.
No. I could have been a little more secretive about it… IF I were doing things MY way.
But I’m not. I am listening to the Holy Spirit as He leads our family to do amazing things.
I could have said, “No, God, that’s too uncomfortable. You KNOW me. And I just CAN’T be online. I love You but that is just too far out of my comfort zone. Maybe You have the wrong person for this job.”
RIGHT. I COULD have said that.
One day I will be face to face with God and I want to hear, “Well done, good and faithful servant.” So… we will do what He’s calling us to do ~ EVEN though we face people laughing at our faith in Him.
God says He has a job for us and has given me the main tool I need to do this job.
Not just confidence in myself but confidence in Him AND that He’s got this and will show His Power through our work if we obey this calling and follow Him.
The Holy Spirit leads.
Have YOU been called?
Are you listening to what He’s called you to do?
Somebody needs YOU and YOUR life’s story. Have courage and do not be afraid.
Will some laugh? Probably.
Will some support? Hopefully.
Will some walk away from your life. Yes.
But with God’s Power and Support you cannot go wrong.
Step up into your position God’s calling you to.
I believe in you.
Listen to Him.