(Our personal situation and the Alaska homeless teen place)
It’s frustrating to know something but to be waiting and not know when or how God is doing something. I am learning that HOW we wait -while we wait- is very important. He’s teaching and leading us every day which is something I wasn’t as aware of in the past.
When our car broke down I thought, “Oh well. Since we’ll be moving soon maybe we won’t need another car for now.”
And also prayers for when and how for the Alaska homeless teen place.
As for the car, we’re asking God if we’re to buy (used of course) or lease or wait… We have been okay for a couple months without one because we’ve walked many places and also a sweet friend has loaned us her van for grocery store visits etc. If we bought one, would we sell it when we move?
(At the time I wrote this I didn’t think of this as a “car fast” but it was exactly that.)
All these questions! It can be frustrating living by faith!
About 14 years ago I talked about knowing we would be serving youth at somewhere like a camp kind of place. I said it seems to have a game room and shade and rocks or benches (or both.) And people can learn skills there and study Bible lessons they are interested in and maybe they can earn a way to paint a brick or something to be part of a wall when work is done… and now 14 years later I believe it will be in Alaska and that it looks like it’s a homeless teen place. (Note: Now former husband has since said he doesn’t believe about this specific calling anymore but I do, and my 2 daughters do so we will wait as God teaches us more and more and opens and closes doors.)
We tried to get involved at the different churches we’ve been over the past years but it’s only been minimal that we’ve been able to help and we know there is more we are supposed to do.
To know it ~but to be waiting~ is a tough place to be.
Some people have known us for years and know we’re for real. Some have just met us and still know this is really happening. Some think we’re silly and don’t know what we’re talking about. That’s okay. Some people secretly hope God moves in big ways because they know there is something bigger to believe in but would like to see some kind of proof or something. The people who doubt will see sooner or later whenever God moves in the God-sized ways. As for now, we wait. I hope it’s not another 14 years before He shows us the next part.
It took about five months for me to be tired of living out of boxes and the inconvenience of not knowing what’s next – but the thing is… we will wait (well, my kids and I will wait) – and do the next thing in front of us each day. (At this point I’m not sad or caring about the few skeptics asking why we’re not in Alaska YET.)
The truth is we are going to obey Him. And if that looks weird to people, that’s okay. We’ve looked weird before and we’re used to being different. God calls us to be different. I never thought I’d be living out my faith in front of so many people but that’s okay also. (Writing the blog -or writing a book- is not something I ever thought I’d be doing.)
I read something once that said when a toddler learns to walk, we don’t tell him go away and be ashamed until he can learn to walk (or even run) and then he can be seen again. No. That would not be helpful. We encourage him until he learns to walk. We help him up. We don’t laugh at him. “What a silly baby! What does he think he’s doing; trying to walk?! Sit down and stay there, baby! You should be embarrassed.”
If you have room on your prayer list, I am asking for prayers specifically about the car situation. If we bought one, then would we sell it? What if we’re supposed to fly to Alaska? What if we’re driving an RV like we think it may be and we pull a trailer behind it so we’d have no room for a car?
We’ve met some other people who ask God what He wants them to do every day and they also say the same thing; they will never go back to another way of living.
Deciding “my own schedule” gets some things done but I think I missed a million moments of what God had in mind for me because I wasn’t looking for that.
Just thinking out loud.