It’s not that it hasn’t been interesting and I know we got a lot done together.
But you are in the way. You are not really my friend.
You tell me what to do every day and when I don’t get it all done, you beat me up at the end of the day telling me that I didn’t do everything I needed to do.
But who are you to tell me what I need to get done today?
I’ve had enough.
It’s probably not even your fault.
It’s mine for believing you and I are the ones who can do the most good with my time.
But God has only given me a certain amount of time and I cannot get any more of it.
So you have to go.
God knitted into me my purpose and you have distracted me and stolen too much.
Until I started asking Him to take my to-do list and show me what HE wants for my days, you were my idol.
You are not my god.
I’m not going to worship you anymore.
God is my God and I haven’t been putting Him first most of my life and asking Him what HE wants me to do each day.
See? He says The Holy Spirit is here to guide me and I believe Him.
The days I ask HIM to lead me are the MOST satisfying days in every way (even though usually I didn’t do what you told me to do or even what what I thought I needed to get done.)
The most UNsatisfying days are the ones where I try to do stuff MY WAY and in MY TIMING.
It’s funny. I have found that usually the thing I can’t get out of my mind is the very thing I actually need to be focusing on, but most of the time until now I’ve pushed that stuff out of the way to stay on schedule – for you.
What God has shown me is that I don’t have to try to figure out how the days are going to look.
My friends cannot open doors He’s shut.
And my enemies cannot shut doors He’s opened for me.
I know. You probably don’t think I’m perfect enough for God.
You wonder if He even wants me.
And the truth is I don’t have to be perfect.
My God is not looking for perfection. He is looking for people willing to give Him their time – giving their lives as a living sacrifice for what HE wants and not just doing what we want or what other people tell us we have to do.
It’s okay if you forget or throw this letter in the trash.
Because if I forget, then tomorrow, I will wake up and break up with you all over again.