It’s not that it hasn’t been interesting and I know we got a lot done together.
But you are in the way. You are not really my friend.
You tell me what to do every day and when I don’t get it all done, you beat me up at the end of the day telling me that I didn’t do everything I needed to do.
But who are you to tell me what I need to get done today?
I’ve had enough.
It’s probably not even your fault.
It’s mine for believing you and I are the ones who can do the most good with my time.
But God has only given me a certain amount of time and I cannot get any more of it.
So you have to go.
God knitted into me my purpose and you have distracted me and stolen too much.
Until I started asking Him to take my to-do list and show me what HE wants for my days, you were my idol.
You are not my god.
I’m not going to worship you anymore.
God is my God and I haven’t been putting Him first most of my life and asking Him what HE wants me to do each day.
See? He says The Holy Spirit is here to guide me and I believe Him.
The days I ask HIM to lead me are the MOST satisfying days in every way (even though usually I didn’t do what you told me to do or even what what I thought I needed to get done.)
The most UNsatisfying days are the ones where I try to do stuff MY WAY and in MY TIMING.
It’s funny. I have found that usually the thing I can’t get out of my mind is the very thing I actually need to be focusing on, but most of the time until now I’ve pushed that stuff out of the way to stay on schedule – for you.
What God has shown me is that I don’t have to try to figure out how the days are going to look.
My friends cannot open doors He’s shut.
And my enemies cannot shut doors He’s opened for me.
I know. You probably don’t think I’m perfect enough for God.
You wonder if He even wants me.
And the truth is I don’t have to be perfect.
My God is not looking for perfection. He is looking for people willing to give Him their time – giving their lives as a living sacrifice for what HE wants and not just doing what we want or what other people tell us we have to do.
It’s okay if you forget or throw this letter in the trash.
Because if I forget, then tomorrow, I will wake up and break up with you all over again.
Please stop being so offended when someone thinks differently than you do?
God makes things good.
The enemy tries to take good things and make them bad and destroy them.
God made us each different.
And this is how He decided to create us. He could have done things ANY way He wanted to, right? And He did it this way. So being different is okay. Having different opinions is okay.
It’s just one more thing satan tries to use to separate us from each other; to make us huff and puff and “unfriend” each other in person and online. The very differences we should appreciate about each other are the very things satan is using to create havoc.
God made you different from anyone else in the world for a reason and His plans for your life don’t exactly match anyone else’s purpose.
AND THAT’S OKAY.
Yet as is his nature, satan sees something good and does anything he can to make it bad. In this case he has grabbed onto the fact that we are each made different on purpose and given it a name. The name that fits right now is “Offended.” Oh my word are people offended!! SO easily! It makes me sad!
“I like cheese. So therefore YOU need to like cheese or else I won’t be friends with you. There! I’m not going to play with you anymore.”
Please stop it?!
Don’t you see what’s happening? That old devil is up to his tricks just like he always does trying to destroy sex, family, marriage, service, and just everything!
The world is in chaos and confusion. Literally.
Keep your eyes fixed on Jesus. He didn’t say there is some way or find the way.
He said HE IS THE WAY.
Keep your eyes on Him and don’t look away.
If you’re not sure how to find Him, ASK Him how to do this. “Jesus, how do I find You?” Just say it! Read the Bible. If you don’t have a Bible, buy one. If you can’t afford one, ask a friend to borrow his until you can get one. Ask church for one. If the church you ask says, “No,” then ask another church!
And it is okay with me if you don’t like cheese. I will still love you. I will still talk to you. I will still care about you.
Please, PLEASE find some grace and love for the people in your life!
What if we left the baby in the poopy diaper because he’s comfortable and we don’t want to upset him because cleaning him up and helping him get out of the poop is a process and he’s tired and the wipes are cold and he’s pretty content the way he is.
That would be neglect.
We change the diaper because we love him SO much. It’s called caring for him. We will change the diaper EVERY time it’s poopy. That’s how it should be.
We need to care enough for each other that we help each other out of the poop our lives are in. That is not wrong to do.
We need to matter SO much to each other that we notice and take the time IN LOVE and WITH LOVE to help lift each other out of the poop.
And it MUST be IN LOVE and WITH LOVE. It takes time and kindness. Sometimes after I know you love me, I will be able to listen to you and let you care for me.
What I believe happens is that satan throws stones at us. He throws one at my husband and whispers to him that I did it and throws one at me and tells me that my husband threw it. Then he sits back and watches, hoping what he’s done will cause damage and confusion.
We have power over this. We are given power by God. If we claim God as our Savior we have nothing to fear. Do not be afraid.
I tried to figure out WHY marriage would be this hard. How come we argued so terribly much? I’ve had other relationships and they weren’t this difficult at all.
That’s when it hit me. Through my tears I realized that satan has done this. We were going to do great things for God and somehow we allowed the enemy to get a foothold and a stronghold.
Here’s what God showed me:
We’re sitting. I’m reading a book and he’s watching T.V. and I feel a hard hit to my head. I spin around in anger and say, “Why did you throw that at me?!” My husband, who has also received a rock to the head, fights back, saying, “Me? You threw this at me!” So satan stands back and keeps whispering to us all the negative things about each other and enjoys the confusion he’s created. Then we realize in a sudden moment of clarity what has happened. We drop the rocks, drop to our knees, and pray together. Then, oh my, is satan ever mad! But we push him out the door together and he shrinks into a tiny puff of nothing.
God didn’t cause the confusion. He didn’t make us argue. We forgot that we love each other for a moment…. or actually a few years.
Think about this. The enemy doesn’t have a need to go after people he’s already got. If you’re having a tough time it may be because you’re doing something right.